Bahiyya Khan - After HOURS after hours: When Making a Game Makes You Want to Die [Summit 2018] -
https://youtu.be/SbVyf8kzygI
Edit: Dang it! That video is for some reason gone so here’s a different one -
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Skh9MQW3tgU
I don’t know why but after playing this I felt like I wanted to know more and understand what exactly this game was about, and then I ended up in a loophole learning about this rad emo Muslim lady from South Africa and I’m very glad I did. I also think she might be dating the female photographer of this game, which would mean that she’s gay in some capacity and that just makes me happy (I’m gay too, don’t make it weird)! I’m rooting for them if they are actually dating (it seems very obvious they are from a video I watched from Bahiyya’s YouTube channel, but my HOCD convinces me they aren’t) and I’m really looking forward to what Bahiyya does next. Also, just to mention, I don’t know exactly how, but I feel like I relate deeply to the feeling of not knowing whether or not something that changed your life so negatively yet so positively was worth it (this is what she talks about in the video above). I think I feel that with my OCD, man. It feels like Stockholm syndrome a bit. I went through SUCH a hard time during the pandemic, but without having those thoughts and going through the worst time of my life, would I have found out my sexuality and managed to embrace it as much as I do now? Would I have realized how strong I actually am and realize I don’t need to prove it to anybody else? Would I have realized many of my faults and tried hard to change as a person (cause might as well if I’m already going through all this crap)? I don’t know dude, this is some deep stuff. Didn’t expect to go down such a rabbit hole with this game but I’m glad I did. Give this a play, it’s worth your time.
P.S. Bahiyya’s favorite game is Thomas Was Alone, so that’s how you know she’s rad!
P.S.S. Also don’t think I’m weird okay? I watched like a few videos.
https://youtu.be/SbVyf8kzygI
Edit: Dang it! That video is for some reason gone so here’s a different one -
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Skh9MQW3tgU
I don’t know why but after playing this I felt like I wanted to know more and understand what exactly this game was about, and then I ended up in a loophole learning about this rad emo Muslim lady from South Africa and I’m very glad I did. I also think she might be dating the female photographer of this game, which would mean that she’s gay in some capacity and that just makes me happy (I’m gay too, don’t make it weird)! I’m rooting for them if they are actually dating (it seems very obvious they are from a video I watched from Bahiyya’s YouTube channel, but my HOCD convinces me they aren’t) and I’m really looking forward to what Bahiyya does next. Also, just to mention, I don’t know exactly how, but I feel like I relate deeply to the feeling of not knowing whether or not something that changed your life so negatively yet so positively was worth it (this is what she talks about in the video above). I think I feel that with my OCD, man. It feels like Stockholm syndrome a bit. I went through SUCH a hard time during the pandemic, but without having those thoughts and going through the worst time of my life, would I have found out my sexuality and managed to embrace it as much as I do now? Would I have realized how strong I actually am and realize I don’t need to prove it to anybody else? Would I have realized many of my faults and tried hard to change as a person (cause might as well if I’m already going through all this crap)? I don’t know dude, this is some deep stuff. Didn’t expect to go down such a rabbit hole with this game but I’m glad I did. Give this a play, it’s worth your time.
P.S. Bahiyya’s favorite game is Thomas Was Alone, so that’s how you know she’s rad!
P.S.S. Also don’t think I’m weird okay? I watched like a few videos.