I've got no review to make on this game. I do want to thank my buddy Luke for getting it for me, thank you for the Christmas gift.
All I can say is that like, this game kind of confirmed that I'm very much not a shmup person. I can't argue the game is bad because simply put, it isn't, I just don't find any enjoyment in whatever this genre tries to do.
Hell, it might not just be this genre, I think I've just gotten to the point where playing any game will set me off and I'll say to myself "I hate this game", "Fuck this game" and then rate it 3 stars or above on this website and call it a day.
Is my anger even genuine? I don't even know at this point. Is it difficulty, have I created this belief in myself that my opinions cannot be validated because if I dislike difficult games it's my fault and not that the game has any flaws? Is it the fact that my life outside of playing games has become incredibly hollow and that gaming is the only thing that fills up the timeslots of my life? Whatever the answer is, I have no clue.
It's not like there wasn't a glimmer of hope for me with this game either. When I got to the near end of Stage 3 and got the Mech, and saw the Gurren Lagann references I was absolutely stoked, I thought I finally understood the greatness...
And then I played the fourth level and felt my soul erode.
I think the worst of it is that I had beaten the level, but somehow I got so mad that the audio went completely silent, as if to isolate me in this moment of weakness. So, because I obviously want to hear this killer soundtrack, I reset the game... and lose all my progress for the level.
I wanted to die, I wanted to die so fucking badly. I had had the only decent fucking run for that stage and I lost it because of a glitch.
And so now I sit here, questioning my enjoyment of things again.
The first time I questioned my enjoyment of the medium was because of someone else saying something along the lines of "You don't enjoy things that are difficult" and for a bit I thought, maybe they're right... but now I'm starting to think that my ability to enjoy games in general is fizzling away, I'm getting angry at all games, regardless of difficulty.
What is this uncontrollable emotion of anger? Why am I monologuing about these feelings on this public review site where someone will likely call me a little bitch for having these thoughts? I have no fucking idea but I need to vent somewhere.
Regardless I don't think I'll be playing another shmup for a long time, I'm sorry friends.
Maybe I need an honest to god break from games in general.
All I can say is that like, this game kind of confirmed that I'm very much not a shmup person. I can't argue the game is bad because simply put, it isn't, I just don't find any enjoyment in whatever this genre tries to do.
Hell, it might not just be this genre, I think I've just gotten to the point where playing any game will set me off and I'll say to myself "I hate this game", "Fuck this game" and then rate it 3 stars or above on this website and call it a day.
Is my anger even genuine? I don't even know at this point. Is it difficulty, have I created this belief in myself that my opinions cannot be validated because if I dislike difficult games it's my fault and not that the game has any flaws? Is it the fact that my life outside of playing games has become incredibly hollow and that gaming is the only thing that fills up the timeslots of my life? Whatever the answer is, I have no clue.
It's not like there wasn't a glimmer of hope for me with this game either. When I got to the near end of Stage 3 and got the Mech, and saw the Gurren Lagann references I was absolutely stoked, I thought I finally understood the greatness...
And then I played the fourth level and felt my soul erode.
I think the worst of it is that I had beaten the level, but somehow I got so mad that the audio went completely silent, as if to isolate me in this moment of weakness. So, because I obviously want to hear this killer soundtrack, I reset the game... and lose all my progress for the level.
I wanted to die, I wanted to die so fucking badly. I had had the only decent fucking run for that stage and I lost it because of a glitch.
And so now I sit here, questioning my enjoyment of things again.
The first time I questioned my enjoyment of the medium was because of someone else saying something along the lines of "You don't enjoy things that are difficult" and for a bit I thought, maybe they're right... but now I'm starting to think that my ability to enjoy games in general is fizzling away, I'm getting angry at all games, regardless of difficulty.
What is this uncontrollable emotion of anger? Why am I monologuing about these feelings on this public review site where someone will likely call me a little bitch for having these thoughts? I have no fucking idea but I need to vent somewhere.
Regardless I don't think I'll be playing another shmup for a long time, I'm sorry friends.
Maybe I need an honest to god break from games in general.