There are two MGS4s to me: the legend of MGS4; what my expectations as a kid were, and the real MGS4; a sloppy mess of a game. I saw this game on EB Games store shelves as a kid and thought the cover art meant that this was the most mature looking game, it had to be cool, but I had never seen a game that looked like that. The game was an anomaly to me. I watched the epilogue on YouTube as a kid many times, I’m not sure why, but I did. And those parts have such a different sentimental value to me compared to the rest of this game. It’s weird how that naturally kicked in at during the epilogue. Just thinking of how it’s almost been 15 years since I saw it in stores. Just how far I’ve come from a 10 year old to a 25 year old. I loved a lot of this game but it also felt like a lot of the choices it made were total garbage. It’s just a total mess with fantastic highs and crushing lows. But no matter what, it will always be special to me because much like Snake, it’s a living legend. But also like Snake, once you get to know it, you realize that it’s not a hero. It never was, and never will be.