IF GOD ISNT WATCHING WHO IS?
We live in a godless godless time and place we live in the wasteland where culture goes to die we are the #NewGeneration we take pill concoctions and kill ourselves in acts of performance art we can't force ourselves to care about anything and the things we do care about are momentary distractions, forgotten in a few days, doesnt matter, doesnt matter one single bit, i saw you in the mall yesterday, you looked worse, i think you sat behind me in English and bummed test answers off me, we both lost a grade for that, fucking bitch, you had a limp when i saw you, i dont think we're close enough for me to ask the cause but i really want to know, i cant tell if i'm sympathetic or feeling some bizarre schadenfreude, i cant tell if i'm feeling nothing at all, maybe i'm doing it just because, god who knows, "God" who cares, whoooo cares, who gives a shit, who gives a single fuck, i'm killing myself in a few weeks anyways, finally cutting vertically instead of horizontally, pussy shit i know, with my luck i'll get found before i bleed out and end up on a ventilator or something, and i'd get a bunch of get well cards in the mail, actually, i think i'd get none, but maybe thats better because getting a bunch of cards because you failed to kill yourself is like, totally gay, damn not even she sent one, i guess she must be busy, i think we basically stopped talking after graduation, we didnt make new friends or anything, at least i didnt, ive seen her around with this one girl with bad teeth, maybe thats her friend i dont know, but its not like we had a falling out or anything, we just like didnt see a point in staying in touch i guess, friends of convenience, god i hope anyone is watching this, i'm bored, gonna go steal a CD from FYE, finishing this later, cya