29/11/23
my mental health has been worsening and I've been getting more self destructive. I've been sick a bunch recently. I always am when it gets to winter. I've been doing this weird thing where I simultaneously reach out to and pull away from the people in my life because I can't tell if they actually value me at all or not. I miss having someone who Got me, yknow? I'm missing my ex more and more everyday actually. I don't know how he just managed to get on with his life completely fine like nothing happened. I suppose that has something to do with the amount of friends he has. I even stopped talking to people I got on with extremely well because I didn't want him to feel like I was taking his friends. I think feeling violently empty is messing me up worse than I thought.
I find making up little stories in my head about the towns and cities and islands I'm making particularly nice. It's like the grown up version of making your lego kingdom enter a civil war or having your barbies act out a messy divorce that ends in a poisoning. Healing my inner child, I suppose. There's a lot of features I wish townscaper had, but I think with too many it'd turn into the Sims (or maybe SimCity?) or like, stardew valley. Would love the ability to customize builds more though. Either way, I will forever be dickriding this game.
how's everyone else in the townscaper backloggd reviews doing?
my mental health has been worsening and I've been getting more self destructive. I've been sick a bunch recently. I always am when it gets to winter. I've been doing this weird thing where I simultaneously reach out to and pull away from the people in my life because I can't tell if they actually value me at all or not. I miss having someone who Got me, yknow? I'm missing my ex more and more everyday actually. I don't know how he just managed to get on with his life completely fine like nothing happened. I suppose that has something to do with the amount of friends he has. I even stopped talking to people I got on with extremely well because I didn't want him to feel like I was taking his friends. I think feeling violently empty is messing me up worse than I thought.
I find making up little stories in my head about the towns and cities and islands I'm making particularly nice. It's like the grown up version of making your lego kingdom enter a civil war or having your barbies act out a messy divorce that ends in a poisoning. Healing my inner child, I suppose. There's a lot of features I wish townscaper had, but I think with too many it'd turn into the Sims (or maybe SimCity?) or like, stardew valley. Would love the ability to customize builds more though. Either way, I will forever be dickriding this game.
how's everyone else in the townscaper backloggd reviews doing?
lenovothinkpad
6 months ago