the jacob geller video that i FINALLY got to watch after beating this is as good and moving a thematic summary as anything, i wont needlessly repeat it. instead ill just say: what rly rly earns the final beat, as unnerving as it is transcendentally beautiful, is the incredible Simulated Madness of the preceding play experience, wraps around yr brain and rewrites it in exactly the way i want from these kinds of games. idk how the emotional arc of this game managed to Surprise me when in hindsight its literally the same one as i had in her story...blank curiosity leads to uncomfortable voyeuristic secret seeking leads to destabilizing terror leads to Compassion Against All Odds leads to enrapturing emotional transcendence via the accumulation of a million brainworms. that this is preserved with the Incomparably Larger Scale is so impressive,,,this is in many ways one of the most lavishly maximalist games ever made, and no part of it feels untextured. i have been thinking nonstop ab how this game feels in my hands and in my head ever since i started it and i cant imagine itll leave any time soon.

lots of complicated feelings as a noted Hater Of The Physical Plane And Coil, particularly as highlighted in the clip geller's video centers. i gotta make art. it seems like everything is still yelling that at me.

ftr all three of these movies would probably be 5/5 azzy bangers in Your Letterboxd Feed if they were real