thought i would be more annoyed at the meta elements, but theyre surprisingly affecting in how laser focused they are on the processes of overthinking and dissociation, keeping everything at a safe enough distance to be understood as an abstraction, with the only thing that can bring it crashing down being like...anything that requires something Other then thinking. i yearn for the seeming lack of stakes of navigating the internal world. climactic conversation gives me slight laura palmer feelings....horrific vouyerism subverted into an angelic Being The Only One Who Can Hear And Understand