I played this with save backups so I didn't get the tense, fragile experience I think you're supposed to have. Playing it like that, it's still hard as fuck, has arguably the most insane and meticulous crafting system of any video game, ever -- seriously, you need to have multiple MSDN-ass wikis with conflicting data open to navigate it -- and just generally conveys how dreary and repetitive and hopeless it would be to smoke meth, constantly maneuver unmanageable and unpredictable threats, and loot abandoned houses for eyeglass lens and scrap metal and powdered milk. This game started to weigh on me in an almost physically palpable way after a good no. of hours and I stopped playing it completely in an instant.