I found the final moments of Citizen Sleeper to be the most confusing. I was able to end the game three times, all in ways that never felt quite right to me. Every ending I would leave behind all that I’ve built up to start new again. I never felt like I was reaching my full potential, just bringing hope that the future would bring more growth and meaning into my life.

Of course, I rejected all of these options. I helped the people in my life find the opportunities they were looking for but their dreams never suited me. After saying goodbye to all of them… nothing happened. No new events in the game, just the continuing ho-hum of everyday life.

At first I thought this inconclusive, that there was no closure to choosing to commit to the station. Now I see that was foolish of me to expect. Life’s ending is death, many people may come and go in big moments but those hardly define your own existence. My life in Citizen Sleeper became normalized. I had to fight for the right of my own existence beyond being simply property, and through that I found a community. A station holding a diverse group of peoples doing whatever they can to stay and live for another day. I became one of them, I contributed to this community and have come to stay among them. There’s no ending to that, but it was gave my life meaning after landing on this lawless station I call home.