It’s personal
At the beginning of 2020 when everyone with a Switch was playing the new Animal Crossing I inherited my grandfather’s farm in a quaint town of Stardew Valley, have you heard of it?
I found a new life there that was everything I wanted & exactly what I needed at a time where I felt like it was my fucking duty to wait for the news broadcasts to tell me more bad news & scroll infinitely on Twitter to find more people in my same frame of mind as I was where we were all terrified & had to work in positions where business owners didn’t want to protect us & nobody cared that we were scared or that our families couldn’t stand to get sick
I came back in 2022 after losing both of my grandmas in less than a year & my grandpa needed to be placed in long term care because my family couldn’t properly care for him anymore
Recently my dad has been in poor health, avoiding hospitalization and struggling with a lot of anxiety and paranoia made increasingly worse by medicines that have been prescribed to maybe hopefully help eventually I think. We’re all scared and I’ve found myself thinking of a trip to Stardew to be with my cows and my chubby piggies and chickens and back to growing pumpkins and kicking blueberries around my greenhouse and saying hi to my little bats in the cave right behind it…
The more I want to visit my farm, the more I wish my dad could go too
A place where you can let go of your anxieties
A home away from home, but not too far
At the beginning of 2020 when everyone with a Switch was playing the new Animal Crossing I inherited my grandfather’s farm in a quaint town of Stardew Valley, have you heard of it?
I found a new life there that was everything I wanted & exactly what I needed at a time where I felt like it was my fucking duty to wait for the news broadcasts to tell me more bad news & scroll infinitely on Twitter to find more people in my same frame of mind as I was where we were all terrified & had to work in positions where business owners didn’t want to protect us & nobody cared that we were scared or that our families couldn’t stand to get sick
I came back in 2022 after losing both of my grandmas in less than a year & my grandpa needed to be placed in long term care because my family couldn’t properly care for him anymore
Recently my dad has been in poor health, avoiding hospitalization and struggling with a lot of anxiety and paranoia made increasingly worse by medicines that have been prescribed to maybe hopefully help eventually I think. We’re all scared and I’ve found myself thinking of a trip to Stardew to be with my cows and my chubby piggies and chickens and back to growing pumpkins and kicking blueberries around my greenhouse and saying hi to my little bats in the cave right behind it…
The more I want to visit my farm, the more I wish my dad could go too
A place where you can let go of your anxieties
A home away from home, but not too far
11 Comments
Im very sorry. I wish I could shoulder some of your grief, it's not right that someone as sweet as you has it so rough.
I don't know if it makes you feel any better but in 2016 my grandfather, who had been an alcoholic his entire life, suddenly started drinking heavily again. His mother found him covered in blood and feces in his apartment and he was rushed to the hospital. His organs were failing and he was basically braindead, all the doctors said he wouldn't live long. My mother took him home and nursed him back to health, and he's still around today after all that. So I guess what I'm saying is, people can get better... even if it is scary, take it one day at time. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts brute, I wish you nothing but peace <3
I don't know if it makes you feel any better but in 2016 my grandfather, who had been an alcoholic his entire life, suddenly started drinking heavily again. His mother found him covered in blood and feces in his apartment and he was rushed to the hospital. His organs were failing and he was basically braindead, all the doctors said he wouldn't live long. My mother took him home and nursed him back to health, and he's still around today after all that. So I guess what I'm saying is, people can get better... even if it is scary, take it one day at time. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts brute, I wish you nothing but peace <3
Thank you all for reading and being so kind <3
@BlazingWaters imma be as strong as i can be 4 sure!
@CURS i love you
@moschidae ah my one worry about posting this is that someone like you would hope for something like that. Maybe i shouldn't but you shouldn't either <3 Thank you for sharing suhc a personal story I'm so so glad your grandpa's doing better. I'm lucky he has my mom with him and she's keeping an eye on things always and keeping me updated. thank you again moschidogg. you as well, always <3
@BlazingWaters imma be as strong as i can be 4 sure!
@CURS i love you
@moschidae ah my one worry about posting this is that someone like you would hope for something like that. Maybe i shouldn't but you shouldn't either <3 Thank you for sharing suhc a personal story I'm so so glad your grandpa's doing better. I'm lucky he has my mom with him and she's keeping an eye on things always and keeping me updated. thank you again moschidogg. you as well, always <3
I'm real glad to hear your dad has your mom to look after him, I'm not religious but I'll definitely keep you and your family in my thoughts. It's the least I can do <3
Also don't worry about me, I don't like my grandpa much lol
Also don't worry about me, I don't like my grandpa much lol
@BlazingWaters @moschidae @everyone-who-liked-this-review
My dad is doing better & feeling more normal today for the first time since March 21st so thank you all yet again from the bottom of my heart ❤️
My dad is doing better & feeling more normal today for the first time since March 21st so thank you all yet again from the bottom of my heart ❤️
Really happy to hear that! Going thought things like that requieres a lot of strength, and I hope both you and your father are doing alright, and I hope things get even better and better as time goes on!
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that's amazing!! I've been thinking about you and your family since you posted this, I'm glad things are looking up!!
Really happy for you and your family I hope things only improve from here on!!❤️
nice to hear things have been improving! Hopefully things continue going up from here, Brute.
BlazingWaters
1 year ago
Be strong, yo