slopcity
2020
13/11/23
I don't think I can explain exactly what happened to me today without essentially doxxing myself, but a person who's been obsessed with me for a while (and now hates my guts) acted horrifically towards me so I ended up having a panic attack + having to reschedule my plans. While hiding from him I ended up (in true townscaper guy fashion) playing townscaper on my phone during said panic attack and it really really helped get me back to baseline. I struggled a lot after what happened today because my ex was the only person who knew the complete depth of the situation and therefore the only person I could talk to without having to explain literally everything beforehand. the townscaping was really good though. i tried to build a massive "tree" and even though it didn't go very well trying to make a big tree out of little houses in a mobile game is a very good distraction. I promised myself I wouldn't rate my diary entry reviews and inflate the positive review count like it's a certain blue hedgehog but I think today it warrants one.
I don't think I can explain exactly what happened to me today without essentially doxxing myself, but a person who's been obsessed with me for a while (and now hates my guts) acted horrifically towards me so I ended up having a panic attack + having to reschedule my plans. While hiding from him I ended up (in true townscaper guy fashion) playing townscaper on my phone during said panic attack and it really really helped get me back to baseline. I struggled a lot after what happened today because my ex was the only person who knew the complete depth of the situation and therefore the only person I could talk to without having to explain literally everything beforehand. the townscaping was really good though. i tried to build a massive "tree" and even though it didn't go very well trying to make a big tree out of little houses in a mobile game is a very good distraction. I promised myself I wouldn't rate my diary entry reviews and inflate the positive review count like it's a certain blue hedgehog but I think today it warrants one.
2019
if i see the word slay or werk one more time i am actually going to vomit
2020
10/11/23
I don't feel so alone anymore.
Built a little island on mobile. Controls are pretty weird, it's taken me a bit of time to get used to the whole hold to undo thing, and I think there are a few missed opportunities for features, but overall, I like it. I've been on a call with someone for about four hours, which is pretty weird for me. We're meeting up for lunch next week, but I already mentioned that. Even when I was with my ex, I didn't talk to people for that long. Maybe this is the start of something good, maybe it's the start of something terrible. I hope it's the former.
I don't feel so alone anymore.
Built a little island on mobile. Controls are pretty weird, it's taken me a bit of time to get used to the whole hold to undo thing, and I think there are a few missed opportunities for features, but overall, I like it. I've been on a call with someone for about four hours, which is pretty weird for me. We're meeting up for lunch next week, but I already mentioned that. Even when I was with my ex, I didn't talk to people for that long. Maybe this is the start of something good, maybe it's the start of something terrible. I hope it's the former.
2020
09/11/23
I've barely spoken to anyone today. I feel so, so isolated. Most of my friends either have stuff going on or have very little in common with me. I bought townscaper for my phone today, since I've been spending a lot of my time playing it as opposed to talking to people who don't really like me. Expect a review of that in the coming days.
I've barely spoken to anyone today. I feel so, so isolated. Most of my friends either have stuff going on or have very little in common with me. I bought townscaper for my phone today, since I've been spending a lot of my time playing it as opposed to talking to people who don't really like me. Expect a review of that in the coming days.
2020
08/11/23
Still sick. Built a little island, but I ended up having to make it into a walled village situation so it could be greener. Which I feel is slightly dystopian, but we move. Started talking to an ex of mine again. They've mellowed out a lot & so have I, so we made some plans to get lunch together next week. Hope I don't mess that up too. My laptop is in the process of breaking completely, which is very unfortunate. Will probably have to buy a new one before the new year. I keep screenshotting things my ex (most recent) would find funny before realizing that we both a) are no longer together and b) do not talk anymore. oh well.
Still sick. Built a little island, but I ended up having to make it into a walled village situation so it could be greener. Which I feel is slightly dystopian, but we move. Started talking to an ex of mine again. They've mellowed out a lot & so have I, so we made some plans to get lunch together next week. Hope I don't mess that up too. My laptop is in the process of breaking completely, which is very unfortunate. Will probably have to buy a new one before the new year. I keep screenshotting things my ex (most recent) would find funny before realizing that we both a) are no longer together and b) do not talk anymore. oh well.
2017
one of the first queer visual novels i played ever. also about the first sport i was actually into. humor hasn't aged well but in like an endearing way. will always be a part of me. i do not consider myself sapphic in any way but i am nebulously queer and a poc so this game was some kind of awakening for me (even if that awakening was just "holy shit?? i can be gay??")
i have a lot of thoughts and memories surrounding this game i fear could only be accurately summarized through a full length blog review or 3 hour long video essay but. i will always be in love with these girls and their stories
i have a lot of thoughts and memories surrounding this game i fear could only be accurately summarized through a full length blog review or 3 hour long video essay but. i will always be in love with these girls and their stories
2005
who out here nauting they psychos...
2017
nostalgic
2022
please come to psvr townscaper.. please
2023
why did i BUY this. i don't care that it's not even £1 why the fuck did i buy it
2004
gmod darkrp servers scare me
what the fuck is nicole's problem... like calm down queen
2015
feels lowkey purgatorial. perhaps this is a lost circle of hell.
2020
07/12/23
I have a really nasty cold. displeased. Spent most of the day in bed. Started building a cool citadel type thing I saw on reddit but got distracted. i love townscaper. maybe it's just because i never got round to buying stardew valley, but this is my comforting casual game of choice. it's nice having a little town that you can make up stories about in your head and build like virtual legos. my laptop overheated and i almost cried because i thought my build got erased. it did not.
I have a really nasty cold. displeased. Spent most of the day in bed. Started building a cool citadel type thing I saw on reddit but got distracted. i love townscaper. maybe it's just because i never got round to buying stardew valley, but this is my comforting casual game of choice. it's nice having a little town that you can make up stories about in your head and build like virtual legos. my laptop overheated and i almost cried because i thought my build got erased. it did not.
2020
06/11/23
today my partner left me. feel horrifically numb. have been getting up to more game development shit in the meantime even though im not really motivated to. built a penis shaped house in townscaper and then built another building with a courtyard. i have a weird obsession with courtyards in things. they have a safe feeling i think,,, a pocket of greenery away from prying eyes.
today my partner left me. feel horrifically numb. have been getting up to more game development shit in the meantime even though im not really motivated to. built a penis shaped house in townscaper and then built another building with a courtyard. i have a weird obsession with courtyards in things. they have a safe feeling i think,,, a pocket of greenery away from prying eyes.